I am so happy to FINALLY (yes, I need to highlight each letter) see you in person. It was a few hours but the experience of seeing the REAL you was worth the wait.
I noticed that I have been taking bold decisions lately.
I never liked the color red. But, there was one time when I tried painting my nails with that color. I loaned cash for my black celphone. I planned to start saving to own a house and even texted you that I wanted to see you again. My actions are surprising me. Or maybe I surprise myself for some things that unexpected things can happen in a snap.
I wanted to tell you some things but too shy to say it to you in person. I am afraid you would take advantage of it. I am afraid that things may not be what it is now. Everything is quite stable. I do not want to rush but there are some truths that I am holding back. Not wanting to say. Maybe, writing for you gives me enough freedom to express it in details.
I realized that I do not have to keep quiet (just like what usually happens when I meet someone for the first time). Don't have to observe your every move when I last saw you. I do not have to over-analyze everything. I jut go with the flow. I also felt the nerves but I thought if I would feel unfortable too, who would be not? It was like I am a child excited to let things happen.
I wanted to know you more.
I am thinking of you, too when you texted. I also want to spend more hours with you. Some place where we could talk or just sit beside each other.
Yours,
Andrea
